The One Who Laughs For No Reason

10:14 am - *facepalm*

After failing to find it in my text book box, I was so sure that I sold my first year French text book, thus kind of screwing myself this year for easy access to materials, pictures, sample activities and so forth I could use for student teaching and making lesson plans. I spent a few hours Tuesday night bemoaning my fate and wanting to kill something when trying to make assessment items for French (hello, MC is not a good format to test French kthx). I was in tears from frustration and stress.

This morning I am cramming information on assessment into my brain for the midterm I have in 42 minutes. I happen to look up for a reason I cannot even remember, and what do I see sitting on the shelf with a bunch of stuffed animals and other miscellaneous items? My first year French text book (and my big awesome French-English dictionary which I was so sure I left at home).

My goodness. I don't even have words for how fail I am right now.

*headdesk*

Current Mood: tired

07:23 am - RAGE and a meme

( RAEG )
And now for something completely different (and not full of rage)...



( RP Meme! )

Current Mood: annoyed

02:10 pm - *happy dance*

Things are looking up! Wa-hey!

So! I've got about 16 days of work left, including today, before I'm free and clear until next summer. Awesome.

I got some funds for my trip next month from family, which means I can afford to go to France! Flights there and back have already been reserved. Just have to find a place to stay for the two nights I'll be there, but the friend I'll be visiting is handling that. Awesome!

Also heard back from rez, and I'll be moving back to Edmonton on August 29 into a furnished bachelor apartment thing. I should (I hope) be able to extend my stay beyond the regular 8 months to the 10 I need to finish those last few courses and get my degree. Graduation, yay! Then I just have to figure out whether I'm going to leap straight into teaching or go for grad school or what. Awesome!!

I just have a few things here and there to take care of, like moving van (and people?) rental, some more shopping, stuff like that. Got an art project to work on, some kind of outing with friends that I hope will happen (even though no one is emailing back...), and just general life to live. Also have a free $50 to spend somehow, but I haven't decided whether I'll be responsible or frivolous with it XD.

:3

Things are going quite well~

Current Mood: glee

11:01 pm - Yes way, Vacay~

I watch too much Family Channel when not at work, srsly.

So, since I haven't really told anyone except the person I'm visiting and my coworkers, which is kind of funny in and of itself, I figured I'd start of the news sharage with a post. Plus, a life update since I've fallen off the LJ map. Woops XD;

The news - the evening of August 12, I will be flying out to St. John's, Newfoundland, to visit a friend who's out there on an internship. Then, on the way back, I'll be stopping in Winnipeg to visit my Dad :3 And then home again to (hopefully) get ready to go back to school for the final year.

As for my life, I'm working the same job I had last summer, which is nice. Most of my money is going towards buying clothes, though, since I need to look semi-professional to teach childrens. T-shirt and pants won't cut it, I'm afraid. I've found some awesome stuff, though, including some awesome shoes. First time in my life I'm really excited about clothes XD. And that's really about it. I'm older as of last month, I have a year of practicum ahead of me if I ever hear back from rez. It's a month-to-month place this time (I was rejected from my main standby because I'd be a 5th year), so apparently I won't know if I can live there until 3-4 weeks before move-in. So basically the beginning of August. And I phoned them at the end of May and got a real person, but now I can only get a recording. It's annoying, and kind of stupid, but whatever. Just have to bite my nails.

I honestly don't want to spend a year working, though, unless I really really have to. The only real upside to that is that I'd have the spare cash to go to France on this trip to Newfoundland (and yeah, I can maybe actually go to France! That's awesome. I just don't know if I can spare the monies for it yet).

And yeah. That's about it. Hope it was enlightening XD

02:34 pm - Oh look, a meme... (ganked from downloadstone)

Edit: Now with more questions :D

Pick ANY character of mine and I will tell you their:
01. Full name
02. Best friend
03. Sexuality
04. Favorite color
05. Relationship status
06. Ideal mate
07. Odd Skills/Skills in general
08. Last/Most/An Amusing Escapade
09. Favorite food
10. Crushes
11. Favorite music
12. Biggest fear
13. Biggest fantasy
14. Quirks
15. Bad habits
16. Biggest regret
17. Best kept secrets
18. Last thought
19. Biggest insecurity
20. Sucks at
21. Wants to say but can't
22. Likes most about him/herself
23. Likes least about him/herself
24. Wishes never happened
25. Fondest memory
26. Wants to forget
27. Turn-on
28. Would give anything for
29. Takes comfort in
30. Best advice

Also, I am fine. Busy, but fine and good and yes. I am eating a donut. All is well in my world =D

05:43 pm - O HAI

Yep. Another Meme. Ganked from Sakura.

List the first ten series that come to mind. Your friends will comment with the character from each series (doesn't have to be all) that they think you are most like. REMEMBER THIS IS WHO I'M MOST LIKE, NOT MY FAVORITES. Reasons for why would also be awesome :D


1) Justice League (including Unlimited)

2) Digimon

3) Sailor Moon

4) Stargate Atlantis

5) Dilbert

6) House

7) Gravitation (lol)

8) Old Adam West Batman

9) YuGiOh

10) X-Men

11:49 pm - So.

Last post I mentioned my job and some of the woes therein. My mom is still worried about it, and this in turn is stressing me out. I want to continue, she wants to quit, all because of what might happen but in all likelihood will not because hey, we're paying thousands of dollars to be here and throwing it all away isn't worth it.

So today I met with one of my supervisors and we talked about it. I was surprised with how emotional I got, and I think it really hit me how much my mom's attitude has been affecting me. But, it's hard to stand up and tell her to stop. This is very different for me, and I dunno. Talking back is also very different and maybe I'm just to differented out right now.

Anyway, I think we've reached a fairly good compromise. I'll be working the quiet stuff or be in a situation with the scary stuff where there will be someone on shift with me at all times, one way or another. Mom seemed better with this, and I'm okay with it, and supervisor was very understanding. It's hard. I'm feeling pressured on a lot of angles and totally understand it all but I kind of just want to say, "It's my life. Let me live it and please support me. I won't do anything stupid or dangerous, I promise." But that's not enough to get through just yet. I dunno. We'll see how it goes.

Only a few weeks and I'll have been doing this for 2 months. Not bad. I'm proud of myself. That needs to be said. I'm proud. Keep it up. You're doing something pretty awesome. It's all going to work out. Good job.

11:19 pm - OMG I'm posting!

And it's not a meme!

The world is coming to an end!

But really, I used to post a lot-ish, even if it was mostly ranting about how French sucks. And it still kind of does but I'm hanging in there.

The biggest thing is that I've got a job in my residence. I'm sort of a glorified student security officer. I, and the others on the team, patrol around the buildings and make sure people follow rules and aren't in alcohol comas. Other things, but that's the basics. It's mostly been quiet, with a few kind of scary nights as drunk people and parties aren't fun to deal with. And, you know, I'm kind of a shy/quiet person in general so it's something really different for me.

My Dad seems indifferent to what I do, so long as I'm not taking dumb risks or anything. My Mom, however, doesn't like it one bit and wants me to quit. I've politely told her no, right now I'm not going to quit. I'm having fun, I'm evolving as a person, and I'm earning cash in the process which cannot hurt things as I'm a poor, poor student. She's let it go although she still hates it (and I'll be getting a call from her brother eventually, urging me to drop it again).

I don't know. Part of me wants to just quit. It will mean more free time for fun and school and less stress from worrying about scary nights and from my Mom being kinda passive-agressive about it. It's the easy way out, ignoring the hassels of getting out of this job.

However, I'm proud of myself for doing what I'm doing. For getting out and doing something different, for meeting people and getting involved. The last three years I've just been a hermit. I've hung out with one friend and only left my room to eat, go to class, for a fire alarm, for errands, or to go to the bathroom (1+2 years only). I'm kind of upset that I'm not really getting support/encouragement for this. I don't really know what I was expecting, but I guess it was something more.

Anyway, for now I'm hanging in there. I have a midterm tomorrow, wish me luck. Looking forward to the weekend.

Happy Early Thanksgiving.

Current Mood: blah

12:54 pm - Yep, all I do is gank memes

From Sakura who stole it from someone else...

Comment on this post.
I will give you a letter.
Think of 5 fictional characters whose name starts with that letter and post their names and your comments on these characters in your LJ.


The letter I received was N. This is going to be hard. Here we go:

1) Nick Pryor - he's an OC of myself and a friend, more mine I guess although we made him together. He's nice to a flaw and has a lot of issues he can't really figure out, but in the end he loves his man and his family and would do anything for them. Even end the world.

2) Nakeru (that's how you spell it, right? oh man, it's been so long) - the 'human' version of Ruby Moon from CCS. She's super energetic and I love her clinging to Touya with his Tori-eyes. Gives me so much glee.

3) Nite Owl - from the Watchmen comics. I'm not entirely sure how I feel about him yet, he seems a little too neurrotic or wimpy or something and that bothers me. Maybe he'll get a spine. (and I'm referring to the second incarnation, btw)

4) Narcissus - the guy who fell in love with himself in Greek mythology. Too beautiful and too vain for his own good. I guess by association I think of Neil, from Class of the Titans, who is supposedly his descendent. I like his luck and just about everything else.

5) Niobi - another figure from Greek myth. She bragged about her kids and then Apollo and Artemis killed them all, so she cried herself into a rock. Yeah, hubris is never a good idea 'nuff said.

These are all off the top of my head XD If it was a vowel, I'd probably have come up with way more Greek myth stuff, because I'm that awesome.

Current Mood: amused

06:59 pm - Seems like all I do is gank memes

1. Add a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It’s actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I’ll assume you’re playing the game and I’ll come to your blog and leave one about you.

Also, I am alive. Apparently. Just been working and working and working, mostly, as I need monies for schoolage. Um, yes.

I've seen all of CotT season 2 and have to say.... I only like Theresa because of inside things with Lost Experiment. All other senses say hate. And Neil remained as awesome as ever. Ash, if you read this, you totally need to watch Face Off. It's on YouTube, posted by a user by the name of GentleGoddess or something similar.

Um, what else? My 21st birthday was superhero themed and kicked ass. I pwn my friends to no end XD. I have many comics and they are gooood. Rini, if you want me to keep an eye out for Legion of Superheroes stuff if I go back to the Edmonton comic thingy, let me know, and I'll try to remember so we can all know what's going on.

Also, Ben 10 is really good. Both Alien Force and regular ol' 10 year old. Good times.

That is all, I think.

07:25 pm - Stolen from Sakura who stole it herself

Give me a fandom and I'll tell you....

01. the first character i fell in love with
02. the character i never expected to love as much as i do now
03. the character everyone else loves that i don't
04. the character i love that everyone else hates
05. the character i would sleep with anytime
06. the character i'd want to be like
07. the character i'd slap
08. favorite overall character
09. three of my favorite characters
10. three of my least favorite characters
11. character i am most like
12. deep dark secret regarding this fandom
13. a pairing that i love
14. a pairing i despise
15. three favorite things about the fandom
16. three least favorite things about the fandom

12:42 am - Oh.

A man in drag totally came through my register today at work.

That is all.

Current Mood: sleepy

09:20 am - Guess what I saw last night...

Here he comes, here comes Speed Racer
He's a demon on wheels
He's a demon and he's gonna be chasing after someone
He's gaining on you so you better look alive
He's busy revving up the powerful Mach Five
And when the odds are against him and there's daaangerous work to do
You bet your life Speed Racer's gonna see it through

Go Speed Racer
Go Speed Racer
Go Speed Racer go

He's off and flying as he guns the car around the track
He's jamming down the pedal like he's never coming back
Adventure's waiting just aheeeeeeeeaaaaad

Go Speed Racer
Go Speed Racer
Go Speed Racer Go!

Yeah, it was good :) I'm very, very happy.

Current Mood: happy

03:48 pm - Comic-con X3

I've been to a local anime thing, and it's always nice. A bit pricey, but you've got to expect that sort of thing. Today, however, I went to my first ever official comic convention, and it was awesome. I bought so many comics X3. Mostly Flash stuff, as the friend I went with was all grabby with the JLA things I wanted, so of course she got them -.-;; Oh well, at least I can borrow 'em. The highlights? I got my picture taken with Darth Vader and two storm troopers. Found and bought Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time for N64, and lastly but not leastly, I finally own me a Flash figurine. Check him out in all his camera phone glory:
 

Current Mood: excited

07:33 pm - Sakura thing

Here's how you play....once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with ten random facts, habits, or goals about yourself. At the end, choose ten people to tag, listing their names and why you chose them; don't forget to leave a comment on their page letting them know "tag you're it". You cannot tag the original people/person back that tagged you first, but let them know when you have posted so they can read your blog.

I don't really have 10 people to tag so, whoever sees this and wants to do something, then right on.

09:31 pm - I don't want to do it anymore

This is the first time I've ever cried over writing a paper. I can't think. I don't know what I'm doing. I want to throw up. 

Current Mood: crushed

12:24 pm - Dear Re'en

 I dreamt in French today. I mean, from what I can remember of it and the thought-impression I gave myself before I rolled over and went back to sleep, I dreamt in french. I was giving my presentation and then was accused of memorizing something even though I was clearly making it up as I went along with point-form notes.

Still... Of all the things I could possibly dream about, why this? Why in french? It's not even until next week. I have midterms before then. I have plot ideas that need to get fixed. I have a headache that's been going since sometime in the middle of Saturday night. Why a presentation, in french, about some actors I'll never even see again (most likely)?

Confused,

Me

Edit: Also, there's a new Justice League Movie =3 The New Frontier. I want it, but I don't think I should spend the money. But I want it. What's a superheroholic to do?

Current Mood: blah

01:33 pm - Little Things

On my way back home from dropping off some movies I rented this week, I encountered a girl. She and I kept getting stuck at the same crosswalks as a caravan of cars were all trying to get into the parking spaces between campus and rez. I had my MCR bag and she commented. Voila, we shared a moment of discussion over the Black Parade concert that she unfortunately missed. I also finally met someone who shares the belief that black-haired Gerard is far better than blond, and a little bit of length goes a long way.

It was a simple moment, and I'm not sure I'll ever see her again, but it kind of made my day.

:) 

05:24 pm - Something about Microsoft Word

Or maybe it's something about LiveJournal. The certain way my writing tends to go, the style, the random little snippety things that grow and still take on a life of their own. They're history. I feel like I'm being wise, but maybe I'm just being confusing. Either way, check it out. Wally West is shampooing Bruce Wayne's hair. Best. Icon. Ever.

Current Mood: creative

10:40 pm - I am aliiiiiiiiive

I just haven't really had anything to talk about.

Um... I'm a bit ambivalent about French - profs are wishy-washy and lessons don't actually seem to be teaching much, but my marks seem good so... I dunno. Latin lit is interesting but damn do I miss my hero boys. EDIT is fun and MC, thank god. Music is really, really interesting. C LIT... I like sci-fi. I'm reading some really interesting stuff. But wth am I learning? And a midterm next week. Fun.

That's kind of been it. A lot of whining about how early French is, too.

Oh, I also had a brainstorming bint and manage to make notes on a lot of stuff for the future, but it seems to be wearing off. I might have to quit it on some fronts and focus on others. Not likely to be TN, though. That thing is a cold lump that will not let me in D=<

I wish I was watching CotT, but Teletoon has made me 'eh' and I've reverted back to hobo mode. You're lucky to see me out of my room on weekends. Usually just to fetch dinner, and even then I'm quick-quick-quick.

Um.

Oh, I've been trying to figure out move-out. Not going so well, as one must be 21 to rent a vehicle and my parent doesn't want to come up and, y'know, help me. At least my friends are awesome, even if they aren't 21. I'll have to think on it. On a similar note, I discovered that to get all apropriate credits and things for my degree, I have two years and one course to go. One of those years (next) is mostly filler courses, too, like this year kind of is. I'm hoping to do summer school in hometown to get it all worked out, but that's not working out so well. ED Undergrad office told me that if I wasn't sure of equivalent, to just write what I was looking for. Then I got an email saying no, can't do that, wth, talk to the place you want to go to.

U of C has yet to ever return and email I've sent them. I've emailed them about Student Loan applications in the past, and got nothing. I can only hope to hear SOMETHING from them this time around. Otherwise, I guess I have to make my local friends call them for me because I don't want to risk being on hold forever long distance. Why can't things be easier, or at least cheaper? I mean, I love what I've done, and I think the U of A is fantastic, but I'm kind of wishing I'd stayed home. Save myself $5000 a year, which keeps going up and up and up.

Now they're changing stuff, too, which has everyone pissed, but I don't understand why. I mean, making offenses a little stricter in their punishments and maybe eliminating FCs does not seem like cause for protests and whispers of rioting, or reactionary posters telling us not to vandalize or get violent. I guess that one floor meeting I skipped might've explained things, but then why isn't any of the stuff people keep taping to the walls talking about more angering stuff than 'if ur dum u culd b kicked out'? I want to guess that they're talking of cancelling dodgeball, but who knows?

The hermit is never bothered by these sorts of things, as she isn't terribly social and is academically inclined. She is also well behaved.

Which reminds me. We had Valhalla, which is like a tower-wide intramural thing, and I actually went out and participated. Helped make our floor's banner, too, though I think 11 hours is too much for it. Out of the three events I participated in, two sucked (and in one, I got a minor bleeding nose, first time in my life ever, which led me to tears for a good 10 minutes at the time, and like 20 later because I didn't ever get an apology and I was miffed at all the people looking at me CRYING and telling me I should go up in front of everyone to do stuff for the event but HELL NO I'M CRYING! At least my FC was really nice about it. We hardly interact and his bass keeps me up but I think he's the neatest guy ever), but the third was pretty fun (Name That Tune). Overall, I'm glad that I went and stepped out of my shell a little, but it's unlikely that I'll participate to that degree again. Maybe just the third event next year, and/or the flag.

So there you go. Definitely not dead, and I suppose I had stuff to post about but I was just a lazy bum XD; Maybe too bust watching Stargate Atlantis or something. Mmm, Sheppard. 

Current Mood: contemplative